I was hanging out with Laurel and her cute kiddos this past week. I was playing with the kids, helping with dinner, and was apart of the bedtime routine. For those of you who know me well, know that this is a situation that brings me so much joy! The 2 and 4 year old sat on the couch while their mom read to them from their children’s truth book. The story was about Noah. I was tempted to zone out, this is a story I have heard a lot! I am thankful I did not, because the kids book worded it in a way that made me see something else. The rainbow. It was not only a beautiful creation and a promise, but it had a reason for its shape. It resembles a soldier’s bow and arrow. This was the Father saying he would not draw his bow again to destroy the earth. In fact the bow was pointing to heaven not down on earth. I found this little fact really cool. I also find it so funny that I learned something from the children’s book. Child like faith? I got excited to be willing to see things and learn things in even the simplest form.
I have been contemplating what to write on my blog lately. I am going through a time in the culture shock/stress phase that is hard to put into words. However, just the other day as I sat on the floor starring out the window the words came. Heart Broken. That kind of heart- ache that consumes your body, leaves you somewhat depressed and the pain is so real it feels physical. I feel like I just had a bad break-up. I was told Nov/Dec are going to be hard months, but I got through November and then …heart break. I am not sure why. But I have my guesses. The adventure of moving here and starting life here is over. I am officially here. I am living life in China. With that being said; now I am realizing that life in China isn’t easy all the time, I miss home and life there, and that living life here is going to be more of a sacrifice than I originally thought. Its not temporary. This is a hard realization. I think for the past 5 months I have been in survival mode. Knowing if I just pushe...
I have fallen in love with the children of Xi'an. I'll see all of these adorable kids and wish you were with me to ooh and ahh, giggle and play peek-a-boo with them.
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